I suffer from depression. Just writing those words kind of scares me a bit. I think it’s almost obvious at this point to those that know me, but I don’t go around telling people. Sometimes it’s hard to hide. It’s the hardest to hide when you’re trying to work toward your passion. It makes it seem almost impossible, but I’m not going to let it win.
I’ve always looked up to many celebrities or people running their own businesses and always tell myself that I’ll be one of them someday. It’s a bit discouraging when listening to some of them say that being emotional in the game is a set-back. I can’t deny that it is, but that’s not going to make me stop fighting for what I want.
“I don’t believe fame and money make you happy. I think it has more to do with acceptance.”
Some days are worse than others. Some days depression just lingers, but I’m able to pick myself up and get the job done. Other days seem as if I can’t do anything. It pulls me down and I start thinking the worst. “I can’t be successful with depression hitting me hard like this.” I’ve never heard of any successful person that’s happy with their carrier publicly announce their struggles. To those who have come forward, they don’t seem happy with their carrier. I don’t believe fame and money make you happy. I think it has more to do with acceptance.
I’ve been testing things out with my emotions lately. When I can get myself over the mountain of self-doubt or negative thoughts I’m able to get more work done than I anticipated. I’ve begun accepting my flaws. When I do something I deeply dislike or feel terrible about I tell myself “It’s okay. Just accept that it happened.” and I notice my entire mood almost changes. The more I tell myself that it’s okay the more I begin to accept that it happened. When I do, I don’t drown in the thoughts.
Don’t let your thoughts build up. It’s harder to dissect a pool of emotions than to capture it in the moment. When it comes to thought, stop it. Thinking about that one thing that’s bothering you and break it down. Understand what was wrong, what could have made it right and accept what happened. Learn from these thoughts. They’ll just make you into a better person tomorrow.
“Your depression does not define who you are. If you have a dream for something, fight for it.”
Your depression does not define who you are. If you have a dream for something, fight for it. Don’t let depression take over your life — own it. There is no depression versus passion. You’re passion will win as long as you set your eye on it. Don’t let depression hold you back.